I give up!

I give up! Well not really, but I want to! It seems that no matter what I do I cannot win this one!

What am I talking about this time? Not men! (Even I am sick of talking about that one, so I am sorry to all who have had to put up with me!) No I am talking about my weight. Ever since I started working out on my Wii, I have been gaining weight! Now all of my wonderful friends have been very supportive and telling me that I am gaining muscle weight and to not worry! I love you all, but I have to call Bull Shit on this one! If I was gaining muscle weight my clothes might be fitting me a little better! I would maybe feel stronger! Maybe even see a little definition! I just feel like my luck (or lack there of) is working like it always is - it is going the opposite of how it should be!

Now I know deep down inside that "the Number" on the scale should mean nothing! I do, I know that, but it does matter! It can make or break you and your emotions. You all know what I mean. Admit it, you know! I think I eat pretty good. I love vegetables and I tried to cut out all the junk food in my house. My only vice is coffee, but I even drink that black now so I could cut the calories back. You would think that working out 6 days a week for at least 1 hour a night would be helping a little, not making it worse!

So, would I be happier if I just gave up? Eat everything I want whenever I want?! On one side YES! I would love that! But I know I can't do that (damn it!) I will keep exercising and I will go on a diet! I will be a good girl (except I am going to start drinking again, that is a topic for another day) and I will find a solution.

Thanks for letting me vent!