So lately I am feeling like my blog is just my personal bitch session. Am I really that pathetic and sad? This is no fun for everyone else to read if I am just going to bitch! But then I think, I don't have anything funny and witty to say so maybe bitching is all I have. Maybe that is just who I have become.....some sad, lonely, bitchy person....I hope not and will try everything in my power to not be like that, I will be a positive person with a fresh new outlook on life.
So how about an update on the online dating adventure.....I am not impressed! I really do think I wasted my money. I have paid a small fee for nothing.....Well maybe not nothing, now I know that older (much older) men are interested in women my age. But not the men my own age, they are interested in girls that are much, much younger! Talk about feeling inadequate. Everyone keeps telling me that you will find someone when you least expect it, so I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I would like to find someone nice to go out and have an adult evening with (of the opposite sex, ladies our night out was awesome, but you know what I mean), but if everyone is right I won't find anyone if I am trying too hard. So, yet again, a no win situation.
I need to stress to everyone, I love being a mom and love my daughter very, very much, but I need to hang onto a little piece of me. I would not trade in being her mom in for anything, I just don't want to end up just being her mom. I want to be a fun, vibrant woman with many interest and that will help me be a better mom and teach her to be a vibrant, fun person in her own right! Does that make sense? Or am I just crazy? (Probably)
Thanks for reading again.......
By the way, I am so excited for the cooler weather...Fall and winter always make me feel better!!!
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You aren't crazy! You are SO very right! A very good lesson for your daughter to see is that you have interests of your own and that you make time to do things for yourself. It's important for her!
ReplyDeleteSorry for offering unsolicited advice, BUT have you considered taking one of the community art classes at the museum? That might be fun! I've thought about that. I know you are doing the online cooking class, but what about one where you go somewhere to learn? Remember, I'd LOVE to watch your peanut! I MEAN IT! No guilt allowed!